I got nothing.
Obviously, with my lack of posting and all. How are you?
There's a lot of stuff that I don't want to think about right now, to be honest. And I find it really hard to type with my head buried in the proverbial sand. Or up my ass. Proverbially. Whatever.
I miss blogging when I don't write. I miss my blogging community. I miss all four of my wonderful readers. So. Look, here's a list of stuff I haven't wanted to tell you about:
1. A wonderful band member died. I will be honoring her memory in a later post.
2. Some dear friends are very worried about the health of family members. There's absolutely nothing I can do or say because it's probably not going to be okay. And that makes my heart hurt for them.
3. We've had some major financial setbacks. Again. Things could turn out for the better, or we could be living in a trailer on my in-laws' rural Kansas property before you know it.
4. Newtown, in addition to heart break and tears, has given me reminders of things I'd rather forget. When I was teaching, I had this crazed parent. Who made threats. Against me. While I was 8 months pregnant with Lovebug. I had plan about hiding my students in the closet, blankets and a hammer stashed near the window in case I had time to get them out. I pretended to be just fine about everything, because that's what I do. And things did turn out fine. Except for the sads I seem to be having.
But!
I know that I am so very, very blessed. Part of my avoidance has also been in pursuit of a wonderful Christmas, which we had. Another part of the avoidance has been this family history project I'm doing, which has been terribly interesting. So the sads aren't winning, they're just dragging me down.
It's like trying to dance on Jupiter. You can still do it, but the gravitational pull makes it a hell of a lot harder.
5 comments:
Sorry to hear about your band member's death. Newtown also hit me hard. You are not alone. Our finances are also down the toilet, so I feel your pain there as well.
On the up side, I am so happy your family had a great Christmas. Ours was good as well. The kids are happy with what they got even though we spent half of what we did last year.
Have a happy new year and keep dancing!
Dancing on Jupiter, yes. That is how it seems.
I was very sad to hear that MrsOneDay died, and words just seem trite, but her family and The Band are in my thoughts.
Congratulations on getting a post up. Between surgery, a death in my immediate family, homeschooling, and feeling quite stuck in the mud in 2012 so ... I've got nothing.
So glad your Christmas was lovely. May you have many, many more. I'm going to keep a firm eye on '13, I always loved that number. But I'm going to have to commit to working toward making this year a keeper ... so I am going to have to cut this short. *snort*
xox
I hear you. I feel this. Maybe it will be easier to dance if we hold each other up.
xoxo
My words seem to have left me, too. Not being a parent, Newtown was more of a mental thing for me. Firefighters getting shot on Christmas Eve? Very emotional to the child of a firefighter. It's been a rough year, and the last month has kind of taken my words from me. I'm glad I have you guys, my Band family, to help me through it. You guys don't care that I've lost my words; you love me anyway. And I love you!
@DavisMusic - I'm sorry that you guys are having a hard time too, but glad you had a good Christmas.
@Karen - I honestly don't know how you do all that you do. I'm sorry for your loss and hoping '13 kicks some ass.
@LucidLotus - You may a beautiful point, as always.
@Cindy - I haven't even processed that one, can't imagine what you're going through. The Band really does make everything better. Much love!
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