4/25/2009

The Voices In My Head

After some trauma in my youth and an ugly first marriage, I worked really hard on my mental health. I became a happy person. The only voice in my head was mine.

And then I had kids.

Now being in my head is like being at a committee meeting ALL THE TIME. There's an officious president who's all about following the rules from the parenting books (You can't let the baby cry! Have you read to them for twenty minutes? ), the crackpot in the back (Why don't you just chill and let everyone eat ice cream for dinner?), the one who's read too many self-help books (You're not giving enough hugs! Hug that kid who just used crayon all over her carpet!), the one who's not paying attention (I wonder if Daisy of Love will be as good as Rock of Love?), the mommy blogger (Will this be funny enough for a post, or just humiliating?), the nutritionist (Where is all the organic food you were supposed to buy? They have to eat carrots!) and my mother (Don't take a break! You haven't done everything yet!).

It's a wonder no one's caught me talking to myself yet.

Do you have voices in your heads? Or do I really need that much fantasized about week in the loony bin?

15 comments:

thewhatifgirl said...

Geez, I have voices battling it out in my head over whether or not I even want kids. It frightens me to think that that might get worse if I ever do... ;)

Becky said...

Oh sweetheart, you know my answer to that question :)

silken said...

constantly!

Karly said...

I most definitely have voices in my head. And sometimes, when I'm about to fall asleep (this is going to make me sound INSANE) I jerk myself back awake saying "What? What did you say?" only I'm actually talking to a voice in my head. Now THAT is just effed up.

deb said...

I actually have a post where i talk to myself as part of Self-Talkers Anonymous...

Catootes said...

those voices have been yelling at me for years. I prefer to talk to the flowers in the yard. they don't talk back.

jess said...

I have two: the one I consider normal me (natural response) and then overthink me. Overthink me is on death row if I can ever get my hands on her.

SWMama said...

Yup. (I would write more than that, but the voices in my head can't agree on what to say.)

Miss Johnson said...

Totally! Don't forget the teacher voice--so bossy! :)

Mimi said...

Uh-huh. And when I pop an Ambien, those voices get heard by my poor husband in the middle of the night. He's actually asked me on a few occasions, "Are you on crack?" I wish.

Chasity Glazer said...

I'm not "registering" to win the breast-pump; but, just wanted to say this is very cool.

Let's try to get together for a play date soon! Well, the kids' together for a play date -- not us (lol), but hopefully we can visit and catch-up a little while they play.


Chas :-)

Leslie said...

Yes. I have the voices, too. You articulated what if feels like so well! I'm there with you. And me. And me, too.

christian said...

I have voices, too. I am not sure if it comes from stress, but I can't get rid of them. the more i want to get rid of them the more I end up thinking about them / hearing them. the weird thing is that those voices worry about things that I truly don't think/feel that way.

christian said...

I have voices, too. I am not sure if it comes from stress, but I can't get rid of them. the more i want to get rid of them the more I end up thinking about them / hearing them. the weird thing is that those voices worry about things that I truly don't think/feel that way.

thewhatifgirl said...

Geez, I have voices battling it out in my head over whether or not I even want kids. It frightens me to think that that might get worse if I ever do... ;)