Intellectually, I've known this since the pink line showed up on the pregnancy test. The point's been brought home in ultrasound after ultrasound, as well as through the nausea, fatigue, carpal tunnel and figure that resembles a water buffalo's. Clearly, I am growing another human being.
But as I scheduled my c-section today (sure, there's a part of me that would love to try for a VBAC, but my first two were well over 8 pounds and despite my current circumference, I am very small-boned) I realized that in about nine and a half weeks, I'm going to actually be bringing home a newborn.
I'm not worried about breastfeeding again. Or about the lack of sleep - Hot Guy's been out of town so much lately that I've hardly been sleeping anyway. I'm only a bit worried about sibling issues and relying on other people to take care of the big kids and their schedules while I'm incapacitated.
But the idea of dealing with all the newborn issues again is kinda freaking me out. After Ironflower was born, her tear ducts were clogged. Her cord site got infected. She had trouble latching. She got a diaper rash that took forever to clear up. Fortunately, when she was about two months old everything just cleared up and she's been really healthy ever since. Lovebug was the same way, minus the tear duct thing and plus an ear infection.
The diaper rashes were probably the worst - they made me feel like such a bad mother. Though they were probably yeast infections and not rashes caused by shirking my diaper duties (apparently now there is a cool prescription diaper cream called Vusion that can actually fix things quickly, yay), I still remember feeling horrible. And I'm not looking forward to going through that again. Especially when the other two give me so many opportunities to feel horrible already.
But on the other hand, I'm going to have a BABY. . .ripe for cuddling whenever I want AND not able to talk back.
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You almost - ALMOST- make me want to have another baby. But not quite. I will come here and read your funny words and live vicariously though you!
Both of my infants have had clogged tear ducts. Both in the left eye. Maybe the right side of my uterus is all jacked up or something. Charlotte's unclogged around 5-6 months and Sawyers is constantly goopy. I feel like I clean his eye every 3 minutes and I know he hates it. Poor kid.
Having a newborn is so much fun, especially when the "newborn" issues are minimal. I'm truly enjoying my son and watching the time fly. I feel like I was just pregnant and already he's smiling and cooing. Crazy.
33tekfan - Are you sure? Babies are so fun.
AndreAnna - It does go so fast - I've gotta remember that. It seems like forever ago that Ironflower and Lovebug were newborns.
Jill - It definitely is. . . are you sure you're done? :)
Will we be getting pictures of the littlest cuddle bug? I love babies.
Good luck. Hope all works out, but I like the fact we scheduled the birth of our second child.
good luck!! I am so far from my kids births it is hard to imagine all the "newness"! the cuddling and lack of back talk make up for an awful lot! :)
I still haven't accepted it either. Good luck, my friend.
You're scheduled?! Yay for you. I know you can handle it. If you've gone thru it before, you will take it in stride.
I haven't accepted it either. I'm going to have a BABY? Wait a second. I already HAVE a baby. I have TWO of them. Okay, they are (almost) 5 and 2, but still.... I can't believe you are so close. :)
I haven't accepted it either. I'm going to have a BABY? Wait a second. I already HAVE a baby. I have TWO of them. Okay, they are (almost) 5 and 2, but still.... I can't believe you are so close. :)
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