So, you may have noticed that I haven't been posting or commenting as much lately. And I'm going to choose to believe that you care about this (because really, isn't the internet all about fooling yourself and/or others?).
Ever since Hot Guy went into the hospital in April, I've been sort of a mess. Being surprisingly preggers (and all its attendant tests and fears - which turned out to be for NOTHING, he's fine), getting into a car accident, losing my job and suddenly needing a new car probably have not helped. As a consequence, I have grown lethargic, my house has grown messy and horrifically disorganized, my posts have (mostly) been lame, other bloggers' talents have stopped inspiring me, my inbox is overflowing with emails that deserve replies and depression threatens the whole damn family. All I have done properly is mother. And you know that's going to go out the window soon if I have nothing else.
And then I read this book: Lighting Up: How I Stopped Smoking, Drinking, and Everything Else I Loved in Life Except Sex: A Memoir. And I was reminded that I don't have to let everything fall apart just because one (or two) things have. And that while we've had a lot of stress lately, we are exceptionally blessed to have each other and our kiddos.
So I've been working on getting my life back. I've cleaned and reorganized the house. I've gone through Lovebug's clothes to determine what can be handed down to the new baby. I've started exercising. I've done paperwork I'm behind on. My list - the list that lives on our calendar and has just grown longer and longer lately - is halfway erased and I've only been working on it for forty-eight hours.
Give me another couple of days and I'll be my old self again - posting and commenting with abandon.
Thanks for putting up with me. And in the interests of being my highly organized self, I'm going to update my sidebar. Leave me a comment if your blog is missing, okay?
12 comments:
That's a lot on your plate. Congrats for getting a to do list and making great progress! Sometimes what seems to be a curse (the job situation) may actually be a blessing (I'm certainly not going to say that about the car accident, etc.) I hope things get much, much easier soon.
Girl, you are going great! My house is a wreck, we brought boxes in from the garage to so we could "go through them" but they have taken up permanent residence in the too small already dining room, you can't swing a cat without hitting a dust bunny in this joint and my hair hasn't been properly cut and colored since the beginning of November. And there isn't any end in sight. So feel better. You are cranking through your list and your family is holding it together. Sometimes that's all you can ask for.
Head up, young person.
It's all a matter of perspective. That's probably the most important lesson I've ever learned.
All you've done properly is mother? Sounds like you've got your priorities right then. Well done, you!
Hope the sun shines for you soon!!!
If all you've done is mother, honey, you've done enough. That is a full time job. Although I'm very proud for you getting a second wind.
I think we all have lulls in our blogging.
wow - I am so impressed with your candor, as well as your devotion to getting back on your feet. Somehow, it all turns out okay, through the ups and the downs, even when we don't believe that we will ever feel better. Sending you strength and light :)
Good for you for recognizing that something needs to change and then actually DOING it. I am at that recognizing part...in fact I just walked out of my bathroom thinking WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME I CLEANED THAT? Eh, who cares, will just get messy again. Good luck on finishing the list!
I'm sorry you're having such a rough time, but glad that the baby is ok. The book sounds like good encouragement. Congrats on the list.
I love that kind of book that gives you the perfect amount of perspective and inspiration. Hope you're having great success with the other half of your list!
I'm sorry you're having such a rough time, but glad that the baby is ok. The book sounds like good encouragement. Congrats on the list.
If all you've done is mother, honey, you've done enough. That is a full time job. Although I'm very proud for you getting a second wind.
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